Commitment and How You Want It Yet You Dont?

Thanks to Dennis im go ahead and talk about this topic for him since you told me to update my blog :) thanks for reading brody! this is why i blog just for you hahahah!

So many people ask me this question all the time! "Jaymie why dont you have a girl friend?" ok let me break it down for you, BITCH IM GAYY!!!! No really though to be honest i dont really know why i dont have one!? i guess i dont really want to have a girlfriend right now i guess its just that simple?
Well im a picky guy to all the ladies out there who didnt know. It may seem like a bad thing but i kinda notice the very small things that unattract me to you. I know every girl isnt perfect but when i look at it that way, i kinda want a girl who is perfect for me! When i mentioned im really picky it doesnt mean im shallow so dont take it the wrong way. Yes of course the first thing that i see or may catch my attention is the looks but then again that isnt the only thing. im not going to say what i look for in a girl though because you just need to find out yourself "secret" muahhahah
As how i see the girls nowadays, they are all the same. To me everyone dresses, acts, looks etc the same. I guess you could say that too, no one really stood out to me. Its kinda hard for me because when i think about having a girl friend or not, it takes alot of time. In this case for example like if i would be interested in them i would talk to them get to know them and what not but then again i wouldnt go further then that like become her boy friend because i would lag. I would be confused weather or not i need this at the moment or not. This also back fires on me because when i try to decide and dont go further i go to a certain extent and then stop talking because i kinda dont want to make it seem like we could actually go some where "if that made sense" not tryna be a player and all, its because i dont know what to do. When i say back fire i mean, when i actually think alot about having a girl friend and i do want one, i go back to the girl "not like a rebound" its because i was finally down to have a girlfriend now. I know shes not just going to come back to me but lemme just say i "slept" regret not taking the advantage when i had it.
When i look for a girl i try to go out of the area. Area as for example "not in my school" but not to far! the reason why i hate having a girlfriend from the same school is because you hang out with them all day and then when you finally get home they expect you to call them like "BITCH I JUST SAW YOU" and then this leads to you getting tired of them YEEDIG! But when you dont have a girlfriend that doesnt go to the same school as you, and you finally see them you miss them you get all extra lubby dubby "oh baby i missed you! lets go have romantic SEX NOW!" you know what i mean?
To end this long ass reason why i dont have a girl friend topic, its simple! Im not really in the mood to care about someone else right now when im still caring about myself! I dont want to be all stressed out about my girlfriend on what shes doing where shes at etc "no creeper and not over protected" but basically just stressed out just thinking about them yaaa know?! Really not in the mood to argue for stupid ass reasons and having angry sex ;)! Not really in the mood to be talking on the phone for 2395782 hours! Really not in the mood to spend a lot of money ;)! Really not in the mood to beat someones ass for checking my girlfriend out or whatever it is! Really not in the mood to have a girl friend PERIOD! "Even though sometimes i may miss that stuff!" :(